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About Me Premium Member Self-proclaimed Genius Falicia "Fufa" Mellin19/Female/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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What tasty noms do you drink most?

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2 deviants said MY MILKSHAKE BRINGS ALL THE BOIZ TO TEH YARD.
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1 deviant said COFFEEEEEEEEEEEE! *twitch*
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1 deviant said Milk because I like tits in a glass.
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1 deviant said Lemonade to chill in the summer days.
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No deviants said Soda because I am oh so modern.

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Journal Entry: Thu Jul 9, 2009, 12:09 PM
  • Mood: Lonely
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“What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.”




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Hello Vince, are you stalking me?

And despite the fact that you're reading this, I'm going to go out on a limb because there's things I have to get out there. And no, sir, this is not an invitation for you to step in.

I am at a crossroads, my friends. My life is about to change drastically and most likely not for the best.

Let's start with a few facts about me, such as that I am extremely co-dependant. I'm not bossy and controlling, but I do wrap my entire life around any one person at a time. I am incapable of making my own decisions, and if there isn't that one person to lean on (relationship or not) I become numb at best, suicidal at worst. I thrive off of giving to others, of of buying and pampering people - generally guys because it's easier that way.

This has been all good and dandy for the most part, I usually flit from one person or another that knows me well; these people are my my two exes along with sometimes my cousin because he's one of my best buddies. William, as you may have noticed last summer and fall, was one as well but that didn't last and it will be impossible to return to that setting.

The one I am currently with (but not with) may be kicked out of the school here in a few days - lack of good grades and such. He wants to become an artist, but not an AiPD type artist. Think music, rap. Yeah. If he's kicked out, that will suck, however we have to keep in mind that I can't possibly feed off him while he tours in the future.

So he will be gone either very soon or sort of soon. Eek.

My on again of again best friend, Nathan (first boyfriend I ever had) has a girlfriend. I found this out recently and it's kind of hard for me to swallow. There's some peculiarities to the whole situation I don't really agree with in the first place, but other things don't help (she's the jealous type to the point she made a necklace for him to wear instead of the one he had been wearing since two months into our own relationship... five years ago.)

He's out of the question. Don't get me wrong, he's there for me, but to an extent. I get... flirty (read: slutty) when I need someone, and I'm sure she'd just LOVE that. Also if I lean on him enough there will be a time when for any reason he'd have to choose between me and her - and in that condition I wouldn't be able to take it if I was abandoned and I have no right to be chosen over her.

And here I am in Portland, I don't do well in long distance situations well at all. I love Will, I do, but I used to always have an alternative, in a way. Now, when I might need one, I don't have one.

I can't find anyone new because I'm antisocial and spaz out, especially when I don't have anyone to back me up.

Fuck you life.






Art I'd Like to Feature

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Awesome artist? CHECK! Not enough pageviews, YUS! Checkit. Even been here for two years, wow!




Commissions

I am offering expirimental commissions for $3 for bust and $7 for full body. The only catch is that the medium and styles I use will be up to me, as I will be testing new things.

Whether it be traditional or digital, you will recieve a fully colored commission of decent size (see my other works for sizes I have used in the past). I can, however, make them any size you need (with the exception of HUGE) if you have a size requirement you would like me to fill.

This is in hopes of being able to make enough money for a new Wacom tablet, as I am borrowing a friend's generic one since mine broke last autumn.

Three slots open for now:
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Please note me with references, size, and any other ideas you may have. I only take paypal. Thank you!

Comments


You need Twitter.

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You could have a Hot Pocket for breakfast, a Hot Pocket for lunch, and be dead by dinner. Dead Pocket
I have twitter. I've had it for over a year. Unfortunately, I've updated it twice in that time.

Once again, I did something before the hype and forgot about it.

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Heaven; where the police are Brits, chefs Italians, mechanics German, the lovers French, and it is all run by the Swiss.

Hell; where the police are German, chefs Brits, mechanics French, the lovers Swiss, and it is all run by the Italians.
See, there's this little humanoid....pixie kinda thing. That has been floating around in my head for like ever. And I'm PLANNING on commishing you later this month to draw it. Once I get a ref done.

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You could have a Hot Pocket for breakfast, a Hot Pocket for lunch, and be dead by dinner. Dead Pocket
Sounds good! I'm in a kind of Brian Froud moment anyways. How it took me this long before watching Labyrinth is beyond me! I love Jim Henson, Brian Froud, and David Bowie!

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Heaven; where the police are Brits, chefs Italians, mechanics German, the lovers French, and it is all run by the Swiss.

Hell; where the police are German, chefs Brits, mechanics French, the lovers Swiss, and it is all run by the Italians.
OMG I LOVE THAT MOVIE!

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You could have a Hot Pocket for breakfast, a Hot Pocket for lunch, and be dead by dinner. Dead Pocket

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